Why Listening To Vows Made Me Rethink Love

Find out the most special part of being a wedding coordinator and why it is difficult but inspiring! Lane says: I'm lucky couples trust me enough to express their love in front of me. It’s special, and it’s exciting. And I’m thrilled that I can learn how to become better at my job, and how to become a better partner.

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I get chills every time I listen to a couple say their wedding vows. You’d think it would get old, right? At least three times a week, every week, over and over again, I listen to vows. But no. They’re always different, they’re always beautiful, sometimes they’re funny, sometimes they’re serious, sometimes they’re awkward, sometimes they’re made up on the spot, and sometimes they’re practiced and rehearsed. No matter what, I always get chills.

The first time I coordinated a wedding, I watched the couple’s first dance. Again, I got chills. It’s awesome to be surrounded by that much love. Even if you’re not a friend or family member, on someone’s wedding day you can literally feel the love in the air. At first, I thought constantly being surrounded by all that over-the-top lovey-ness would become trite. But it never has: I grew to enjoy being surrounded by annoyingly happy people all the time.

As I started to settle into my job as a wedding planner in New Hampshire, I found that I could take a moment to actually listen to the vows, rather than watching anxiously as I waited for my next move as the coordinator. Soon I began to think about my own love life as I listened. I had a girlfriend at the time, and we were discussing moving in together. Wedding vows often include some sort of adorably mushy line about wanting to wake up next to your partner for the rest of your life, or wanting to tell them all the important things that happen to you as soon as they happen. Couples overwhelmingly share some sense of being at home with their partner.

I listened to these lines of love and adoration over and over again, weekend after weekend, and thought about whether that was true for me. Who did I want to talk to when a life-changing event happened? At this point in my life, who makes me feel most comfortable and at home? Every time I’ve told this story, when I get to this part, all of my friends laugh at me, so if you’re reading at home and the answer to these questions makes you giggle, just know that I understand. When I truly thought about it, I realized that the person I wanted to chat with on my drives home from work, or after a frustrating day, wasn’t my girlfriend. It was my mom. Now hold up. My mom?